And then, out of the blue, God/dess drops a big one on you and the yammerings of the politicos fall to the background while you deal with a Life Event.
My elderly mother fell and injured herself severely, followed by: emergency transport to the nearest Level 1 trauma center, then emergency surgery, then days of recovery in hospital, then transport to a skilled nursing facility for long-term rehab.
My mind has been numbed by the overwhelming fear. And through it all, there have been nuggets of shining silver:
- She fell in the house, with the brand-new air conditioner, so the +100F heat was not a factor
- The people who found her were the community First Responders - trained to deal with any emergency
- The hospital has the highest rating for any Level 1 trauma center in the State
- The orthopedic surgeon on call that day is one of the best orthopedic trauma surgeons in the country
- The hospital gave her (and us) the most exemplary care I've ever experienced
- The job I find so tedious has allowed me to: 1. pay for the new A/C unit. 2. take time off to care for her. 3. Help pay for her portion of the bills.
I'm trying to stay focused on those positive things, and not dwell on the possible negative future.
My eyes are here, on the present.
My heart is letting go of the fear, focusing on the positive, and most of all, being grateful for all that did and did not happen.