Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Attitude of Gratitude

I'm working really hard right now to let go of fear. There's so much in the world to be afraid of now, and to be angry about.  Terrorists and politicians feed and prey on our fears constantly in their efforts to manipulate us, to control our emotions and decision making processes.

And then, out of the blue, God/dess drops a big one on you and the yammerings of the politicos fall to the background while you deal with a Life Event.

My elderly mother fell and injured herself severely, followed by: emergency transport to the nearest Level 1 trauma center, then emergency surgery, then days of recovery in hospital, then transport to a skilled nursing facility for long-term rehab.

My mind has been numbed by the overwhelming fear.  And through it all, there have been nuggets of shining silver:
  • She fell in the house, with the brand-new air conditioner, so the +100F heat was not a factor
  • The people who found her were the community First Responders - trained to deal with any emergency
  • The hospital has the highest rating for any Level 1 trauma center in the State
  • The orthopedic surgeon on call that day is one of the best orthopedic trauma surgeons in the country
  • The hospital gave her (and us) the most exemplary care I've ever experienced
  • The job I find so tedious has allowed me to:  1. pay for the new A/C unit.  2. take time off to care for her.  3. Help pay for her portion of the bills.

I'm trying to stay focused on those positive things, and not dwell on the possible negative future.

My eyes are here, on the present.
My heart is letting go of the fear, focusing on the positive, and most of all, being grateful for all that did and did not happen.

2 comments:

  1. I'm highly skeptical about so much of what we're told to think and feel. The job of newspapers/media is to make money, not to educate or inform, to sell papers/adverts, etc. I don't deny that awful things are happening in the world, but I'm thinking there likely always has been. We're just fortunate (or un) to live in a time of 24/7 "news" and 'world correspondents'. I think your mom's accident is far more important. Living here and now sometimes seems to me like moving to a new place altogether, it changes my perspective so much. I'll be thinking about you and your mom.

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  2. Agree w/ your statement about the media. Journalists may start out with the idealistic intention to "inform"... but it's really all about the money.
    Thanks for your support re: Mama. She is making real progress, and we can see the light at the end of the tunnel now.

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